Thinking...

I want to be one of those girls that can post pictures of us up.
I won’t post pictures of us kissing or holding hands or hugging.

But I want to at least use a photo of us as display.

I want to be able to post about you with out being scared of people finding out.

I lied i don’t want to be one of those girls, but I would love it if I could do the same.

I’d love to be able to invite you home where we just sat around and watched movies with popcorn.

I’d love to be able to go out with you without sneaking out.

I want to hold your hand and hug you in public.
Peck your face.
Snuggle with you…

without having to fear others.

I really am.

You say you liked me; I said that too. Then I told you, I still do and that I’m confused about your thoughts. I haven’t actually got an answer back.

All I get is, it’s going to be complicated and because I’m going to Irvine, it’ll be hard.

I’m actually quite sad. I really did just want you to say, I like you too because I had already thought about my going away, the bro code and the girl code, but even then I wanted to at least give it a chance.

But you say bro code, so i will respect that. I won’t make you feel uncomfortable and try to talk you out but respect your decision.

Feelings held for almost a year comes out in a matter of a few days. My little heart breaks in a matter of minutes after telling you how I feel.

But I respect your decision, and as sad as it may be, I will also have to say that we are such great friends, and even though things might not have turned out the way i wish they could’ve, I love you for always being there for me and I love you for being you.

I don’t quite understand how someone like you, would start liking a girl as boring as I, but :) things happen.

At least now, I won’t say I regret not having told you my feelings back then.

Because now you know. For me, I still don’t know what you think. You beat around, I really just wanna hear it once. Then I promise I will try my best to stop liking you. It’s not a guarantee but I will try.

But whether or not you are, i won’t be able to stop.

It’ll take time for me to stop if these feelings I have for you are unrequited, but I really do hope they’re reciprocated.

I think I’ve been in love with you too.

I just don’t know for sure what this is, but for sure.
I really did like you, and most likely still do.

Thanks for confirming and telling me you feel/felt the same way.

There’s only 3 more weeks until we check-out, but.. Thank you for telling me, it’s finally not a question to me anymore. And I’m happy to know that.

<3

a friend worries he or she passed something on to his or her ex.

So worried, he or she cant sleep or eat but to worry for the other.

I have no idea how to cheer this friend up.

To be honest, I think I’ve started having a crush on you at the end of Junior year because you make me feel special the way you listen, the way you kid, the way you comfort me… Even if it’s not exactly in that way.

But I’d deny it every time I thought it because when we first started talking the beginning of Junior year, on the phone you said to me, “I won’t like you.” I was a bit hurt I guess you can say, but I said the same thing back even though I knew the chances of my having a crush on you was likely…

Anyways, I finally started admitting it when I realized I would get jealous when my close bud would talk about you. And how she liked you and what she did or talked with you about. But then I had realized, my chances of actually trying it or admitting it was over. Why? Because it’s Bros before hoes for you. And even though you two really only did last a few days, it’s girls before boys for me.

… . . :P

But thank you. You always know what to say to console me.

I won’t talk to him anymore.
Or help him.

Or do things I don’t have to because, he doesnt understand it.

:P Friends he thinks.. :P